I feel really weird tonight.
What are staple foods in your diet? Xx
Honestly, I’m pretty boring. I usually have fruit in the morning with toast or cereal or if I have good leftovers from the night before I have that for like a brunch a little later. I have a green juice around 3pm without fail. every. single. day. For dinner every Wednesday I have pasta, every Friday Gage and I have takeaway… every other day of the week… Black bean tacos, stir fry, spicy vegetable mix with quinoa, sweet potatoes stuffed with vegetables, white bean and kale soup… veggie kabobs. Grilled vegetables, roasted vegetables. Those are very typical dinners for me. After dinner I usually have a popsicle that’s frozen fruit puree…. and then later into the night I usually have dark chocolate almond milk.
the thought of unplaned sex is stressing me and weight on me alot. do you have any tips or thoughts
There are a few things you can think through prior to sex such as personal limits or wants/needs. It’s best to know those things beforehand because in the heat of the moment it’s hard to think things like that through; a clear head is always a nice state to make important decisions in. In addition to that it’s equally important to visit a clinical if you’ve had at least one sexual partner and birth control and protection if pregnancy or STIs are a possibility of an outcome with sex.
The rest just falls into place. Don’t rush things. Kissing is fun. Making out is fun. Touching is fun. And whatever it leads to… it leads to. Chances are at some point between the kisses and wondering hands your body will want more. And that’s a a desire strong enough to push all the thoughts planning and worrying far, far away. I hope that helps at least a little.
If you had to list your top eight imperfections, what would they be?
- I worry a lot.
- I care about others’ opinions about me a lot.
- Certain pushy personality give a lot of anxiety.
- Sometimes I can get really, really down on myself.
- There are certain times when I really don’t think my mind can perceive my body the right way. I’ll look in the mirror and hate everything; I’ll convince myself I’ve gained like 20 pounds and the next day I’ll be fine.
- Sometimes I’ll get in these moods when I’m getting ready. I don’t know what sets me off, but it’s like a wrinkle in my shirt or my jeans shrunk in the dryer at little too much or my face isn’t up to par… but I could actually take a bat and bust every wall down in my house.
- I have really bad allergies. If air even brushes against the inner part of my eye starts itching so bad… which rubbing my eye leads to my sinus… producing enough snot to drown a fish. It’s a mess. Ha.
- I hate to sleep at night. I could stay up the entire night easily.. and by entire night I actually mean the entire night through the morning. But once I do fall asleep I hate waking up. Ugh.
It’s really weird and awkward when friends start sexualizing you. With friendship comes safety and trust. It’s nice for someone to think you’re a lovely person and it’s nice for someone to think you’re a beautiful person, but it’s uncomfortable for someone to drop you from those things to this sexual pedestal as if that’s suddenly all you’re good for.
I used to have this friends that constantly told me I had bedroom eyes… and that comment grew and grew and grew with time. It’s okay to joke around or talk about to a certain level, it’s fun, but at some point sexual labels are too much. You are suddenly this label instead of a person. I also currently have this friend that I’ve had for probably 6 years or so and since I started dating Gage there isn’t a time when I talk to them that they don’t bring up how they think Gage’s is so lucky and they’re sure he can’t keep his hands off of me or throw in a comment about my body. It’s so annoying and distasteful and uncomfortable. Your friends should value you for exactly who you are, because they should know you best. It’s a punch in the face when they take your sexuality and put it above who you actually are. Why can’t all the other millions of things about me be just as important? It’s not cool. It’s not flattering. It’s disrespectful.
Life isn’t suppose to be all good and life isn’t suppose to be all bad. Life is about the journey, it’s never really about the destination or the short term goals.
There is a quote that says, “life is a story you have to read backwards to understand.” I really like that. We don’t know what value things have until they are gone or until you survive them or until the led you to something so much better.
Life marks you and it changes you; that’s suppose to happen. What’s the point if you leave this earth the same person you were when you came into it? I guess it’s just important not to let it take from you or control you. Whatever is so hard now isn’t going to be so hard forever. I do believe that it will make perfect sense one day. The hard part is you have to live with it until that one day comes. I guess that’s asking for a lot of unwavering faith, but if you think of all the things that make you who you are and all the things that have brought you there… I think that’s really inspirational. We’ve all made it so far and we’ve all made it through so much.
Okay. I hope you’re having a good day! If not, do something that makes you happy tonight! <3 xoxoxox
Martin Luther King Jr. (via anarcho-queer)
Today my nonna told me it might take time to find a job that is worth accepting and that’s okay. I think that’s one of the most supportive things anyone has ever said because… I don’t know. It hasn’t been that long since I’ve passed boards but I feel this pressure and guilt about not being in school but also not having a job in my career pathway..